Love Chronicles Lyrics

Can remember the first girl that I did love
It was Stephanie
In kindergarten arithmetic classes she used to
Sit next to me

I'd pass her sticky sweets under the table
Where the teacher couldn't see
Although she wouldn't remember me now
Sometimes I wonder where she can be

I can remember the first girl I kissed
It was Christine when I was ten
I'd been told we were moving away
I thought I'd never see her again

Oh, don't forget me
I'll be back when they let me
Before you learn how to lie when you're leaving
Love is so much easier then

And at school would you believe three hundred boys
And no girls at all
But you're a fool if you should leave
Just think of the joys of rugby football

And prep in the morning and Brylcreem and acne
And cross country running to kill evil thoughts
I'm surprised that I survived
I ran ten thousand miles with my back to the wall

I can remember the first girl that I made love to
It was in a park
In the lower pleasure gardens in Bournemouth
In summer just after dark

My mind was reeling
Oh, what a feeling
I missed the bus and walked twelve miles home
And it really didn't seem far

And all through my seventeenth summer
Running together from crowds and ties
Taking our clothes off and feeling each other
With fingers and senses and mouths and eyes

Incurring the glances of old disapproval
From elderly local inhabitant's eyes
Oh time, time we hardly even knew you
You didn't touch us with your lies

In the halcyon days of my late adolescence
My goal seemed clearly in sight
Playing electric guitar with a beat group
We set the ballrooms alight

Camping it up for the dyed blond receptionists
Who told us we were alright
On an ego trip for a teenage superstar
On thirty shillings a night

And so, it fell that I came up to London
To look for fortune and fame
Starry eyed in my seaside successes
And much too sure of the game

First girl I met there, I thought I'd get there
But the first girl was nearly the last girl
She left my eyes in the drain
She sat on my floor in the dead of the night

Rolling a joint and looking round for a light
Her clothes were so black
And her face was so white
How could I know what was right?

And I sat all huddled upon my bed
Watching her in my innocence
And it was no sense at all but too much sense
That took me to the bridge of impotence

Oh, Artaud's anthology lay spread on the floor
And the thoughts that she gave me
I'd not met before and stranded half hypnotized
I watched her in awe of everything that she stood for

And I wanted more than anything
To be like her with every sense
But it was no sense at all but too much sense
That took me to the bridge of impotence

She came over to me and kissed me in play
Taking my hand between her legs as she lay
And she looked in my eyes but I turned them away
Finding no words fit to say

And I hated myself, but could not move
Shattered in my confidence
But it was no sense at all, but too much sense
That took me to the bridge of impotence

Now, the stare of the light bulb tore holes in my brain
As she got up in the silence that hung like a stain
And I wanted to speak or to call out her name
But how could I begin to explain?

And my prosecuting room still holds
A strand of her hair in evidence
But it was no sense at all but too much sense
That took me to the bridge of impotence

Oh, I still think about her when the night fills with rain
And speaks in its voices uneasy and vain
And I think were I maybe to find her again
Oh, I'd probably see her more plain

And I should have known she was just like me
It was after all only common sense
But it was no sense at all but too much sense
That took me to the bridge of impotence

But it was no sense at all but too much sense
That took me to the bridge of impotence

At first I didn't go out much at all
I just stayed at home in my chains
Picking over the threads of my confidence
And searching for the remains

And when I couldn't stand any more of it
Going down to a club
Mixing in with the sounds and the crowds
I let the music cover me up

And only, lonely, the harlequins and painted phonies
Pick their ways, through the haze
Of highs and lows and blues
And all that I could do was to pick my way to you

Though I didn't tell you
You were just a thing to prove
I was hungry when found you
But I'm alright now

They sigh, they lie, the refugees and superheroes
On ice, so nice to see you, what's your name?
And all that I could do was to say the same to you
Take you for the moment, though the moment wasn't true

But I was hungry when I found you and I'm alright now
Though the street lamp cut through the curfew
It shed no light on our mind
It would have been so easy to love you at any other time

Only, lonely, you came to me the night hung coldly
In your eyes, some other time I might have stayed with you
But all that I could do was to turn around to you
Thanks for what you gave me now, it's time to say, adieu
I was hungry when I found you but I'm alright now.

Ba, ba, ba, alright now

And so it came that I stood disillusioned
By everything I'd been told
I just didn't believe love existed
They were all just digging for gold

Widows and bankers and typists and businessmen
Loved each other they said
But all it was though was just a manoeuvre
The quickest way into bed

And so I followed the others' example and jumped into the melee
In the hunting grounds of Earls Court and Swiss Cottage
I did my best to get laid, beer cans and parties, deb girls and arties
Bouncing around in the social confusion, missing and making the grade

The very first time I must confesvs
I thought you'd be like all of the rest
And we'd be strangers once again
By the time we were dressed

But when you'd smoked your cigarette
And talked of some people that we'd met
I found myself asking was it set?
Did you have to go yet?

And so you laughed and then kissed me
And stayed for the whole weekend
Although the bed was so narrow
We had to sleep end to end

And so the weeks passed through my brain in their dadaistic chain
I found myself seeing you again and again and again
And all you gave, you gave it free, asking for nothing back from me
You gave yourself unselfishly as a part of me

And where I thought that just plucking the fruits of the bed was enough
It grew to be less like fucking and more like making love
Of all the girls I ever knew, some loved and some denied me
And all the words I ever said have been no use to hide me

And all the songs I ever sung, each one of them untied me
And all the girls I ever loved have left themselves inside me